tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-39919102803687776162024-03-18T21:19:05.379-07:00Beautiful BonesGorgeous Nightmarehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08414798640391319198noreply@blogger.comBlogger47125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3991910280368777616.post-67563401159298902542012-03-03T18:59:00.000-08:002012-03-03T18:59:44.156-08:00Till I Collaspe - Thinspo<iframe src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/PjqW4g7DGU4?fs=1" allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="344" width="459"></iframe>Gorgeous Nightmarehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08414798640391319198noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3991910280368777616.post-12111065432784448822012-02-17T03:03:00.000-08:002012-02-17T03:03:59.154-08:00Mental Breakdown,<div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Breakdown, After Breakdown.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"> Can't remember the last time I have had such a bad day.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Not eating really makes me a mental nut case.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I cried myself to sleep and slept for like 5 hours.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Woke up, Went to Chucky Cheese,</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Had TWO pieces of pizza :"(</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"> Came home, Had another breakdown.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Tore my room apart out of frustration.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Ate A 200 calorie Burrito.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Now I sit here in my room which is in Shambles.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Fucking pissed I ate today.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Yesterday I did good with fasting.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Today not good at all.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I swear to god I'm not eating tomorrow.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I can do this.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">All you ladies are doing and looking Amazing.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">SO Jealous. </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="color: magenta; text-align: center;"><b><span style="font-size: x-small;">Youguysaremyinspiration<3</span></b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br />
</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">My Thinspo for Today is Crop Tops.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Weird, Iknow But I have a strange obsession with them.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Wish so Badly I could look like these girls in them!</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br />
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</div>Gorgeous Nightmarehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08414798640391319198noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3991910280368777616.post-31934991387951624362012-02-14T02:40:00.000-08:002012-02-14T02:40:39.208-08:00Still Alive, Sorta.<div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I know you guys probably thought I died, </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Feels like years since I have blogged.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Feels so fucking good.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Update: Went home for a couple months.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Friends.Fun. Parties.Young, Wild and Free</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><strike><u><b><span style="font-size: x-small;">Food. </span></b></u></strike></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I weigh 139<b>.</b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><b>UGH.</b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I'm so excited to get back on track,</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">SO Excited to be with Ana Again. </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><u> </u></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">What have you ladies been up to?</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Going to catch up on blogs tonight.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br />
</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Starting tomorrow, I'm fasting.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Water. Diet Soda.Soy Milk.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">That's it!</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br />
</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I can do this (:</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">20 pounds by the end of March?</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">That's my goal.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br />
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</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><b style="color: magenta;">Stay Skinny<3</b></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiK3isSKgrlTIEBStsovQYQKspgpDoBDa4jD-6fwCmK4vRrI5-JV1PIfNZGI1eFTdMEZtQ7b7Fiv7ZVhYIPVaeOmjAZWbmZ1XQTisp3AbBlut5TPT1Anxj5Jyj3MMk43GYlZ0D5b8eWtKQ/s1600/tumblr_lxle5q8GA11qg59bjo1_500.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="212" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiK3isSKgrlTIEBStsovQYQKspgpDoBDa4jD-6fwCmK4vRrI5-JV1PIfNZGI1eFTdMEZtQ7b7Fiv7ZVhYIPVaeOmjAZWbmZ1XQTisp3AbBlut5TPT1Anxj5Jyj3MMk43GYlZ0D5b8eWtKQ/s320/tumblr_lxle5q8GA11qg59bjo1_500.png" width="320" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div>Gorgeous Nightmarehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08414798640391319198noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3991910280368777616.post-17829585399959107072011-12-24T22:54:00.000-08:002011-12-24T22:54:27.315-08:00I will not say Merry Christmas.<div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I hate Christmas.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Stressful</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Fattening</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Self indulgent</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Selfish</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Busy</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Every store is closed</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">People wearing those stupid red hats</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"> The mess afterwards</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">The traffic</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">The total money drain</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">People not liking there gifts after you spent tons of time and money on it.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">The loneliness</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Realization that you have no significant other to buy you things.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br />
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</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Sorry Just a few of the things That I hate about Christmas.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Maybe its because I spend more money then I receive,</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">But thats what Christmas is about right, Giving and not receiving?</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Or is about God's birthday?</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Who fuckin knows.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br />
</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I ate tons of calories today.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Fuck..Fuck.Fuck</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Atleast 2,000 calories.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Did you know 3,500 calories = A pound of fat?</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Yuck.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br />
</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">My 10 day challenge is over and I managed to loose my 5 pounds.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I see absolutely no differnece.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I see pictures of people who weigh 130 -135 and there SO fucking skinny.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">What the hell.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Maybe i just can't be skinny?</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Maybe I will never see myself as skinny.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">UGHHHHHHHH.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br />
</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Pictures of me, I know I'm a fat, ugly, weirdo.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">But please no negative comments.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br />
</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><b><span style="color: magenta;">Stay skinny and Festive <3</span></b></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-F-zvgzuqSh0/TvbH47kdD_I/AAAAAAAAAaw/FEQZKlr_r7E/s1600/IMG_20111224_182116.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-F-zvgzuqSh0/TvbH47kdD_I/AAAAAAAAAaw/FEQZKlr_r7E/s320/IMG_20111224_182116.jpg" width="239" /></a></div><br />
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</div>Gorgeous Nightmarehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08414798640391319198noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3991910280368777616.post-43784110499460323102011-12-24T22:36:00.000-08:002011-12-24T22:36:45.596-08:00Questions and Awnsers.<div style="color: magenta; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><b>How old are you?</b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">17 Years young (: </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="color: magenta; text-align: center;"><b><span style="font-size: x-small;">Are You more Ana or Mia.</span></b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I really wouldn't consider myself either.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">But if I had to say, Definitely Ana </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="color: magenta; text-align: center;"><b><span style="font-size: x-small;">You don't post very much.</span></b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Yes I know.. </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">My life is very busy, not like that's an excuse, there's so many girls out here who have wayy busier life's then me and they manage to post everyday, I need to stay on top of it more.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br />
</span></div><div style="color: magenta; text-align: center;"><b><span style="font-size: x-small;">Have you done any drugs/drank before?</span></b></div><div style="color: black; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Yes Sadly I have.</span></div><div style="color: black; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Weed.</span></div><div style="color: black; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Ecstasy</span></div><div style="color: black; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Basically every kind of pill</span></div><div style="color: black; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Heroin.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br />
</span></div><div style="color: magenta; text-align: center;"><b><span style="font-size: x-small;">How much weight in total have you lost since you started this blog?</span></b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">30 pounds.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="color: magenta; text-align: center;"><b><span style="font-size: x-small;">Secrets to weight loss?</span></b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Water.Water. Water.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Absolutely no non diet soda</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Exercise.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">No snacking in between meals.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Don't weigh your self everyday</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Always eat breakfast, even if its a small one</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br />
</span></div><div style="color: magenta; text-align: center;"><b><span style="font-size: x-small;">Favorite Band?</span></b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I love punk music and juggalo music.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">1.Rise Against, </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">If you have never heard them please please check them out, they are fucking amaing<3</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">2.Insane Clown Posse, </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">If you don't know what a juggalo is don't google it,</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"> nothing ut negative shit comes up, but yes I am a juggalo, and very proud of it (:</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br />
</span></div><div style="color: magenta; text-align: center;"><b><span style="font-size: x-small;">How many calories a day do you eat?</span></b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I usually try to stay under 500 calories a day.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br />
</span></div><div style="color: magenta; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><b>Post pictures of yourself.</b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Not really a question, but I will in the next post, promise (:</span></div>Gorgeous Nightmarehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08414798640391319198noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3991910280368777616.post-85525866335518819012011-12-21T22:42:00.000-08:002011-12-21T22:42:28.868-08:00Not a normal 17 year old.<div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">The things that I have seen, The things I have done</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Most people won't do or see in two lifetimes.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I wouldn't wish any of these things on my worst enemies. </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Depression</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Anorexia</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Bulimia</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I have been raped.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Assaulted.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">My best friend was shot dead,</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Beaten by my (ex) Boyfriends.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I have slept with over 15 guys,</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Done an UN recordable amount of drugs.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Had to beg for money just to make it home at night.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"> Gotten so drunk i don't even know the name of the guy I'm laying next to.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I have never had a fateful boyfriend.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">My boyfriend use to make me sleep with guys to get drugs/Money. </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br />
</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">The thing is, All these things happened because of the choices <b><i>I made.</i></b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">God forgive me for my sins.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><b><span style="font-size: x-small;">I am so sorry.</span></b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"> </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I don't want any pity, Just nice to get things off my chest.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"> <span style="font-size: x-small;"><br />
</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">As for the challenge I have 4 days left and I AM fasting.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I don't fucking care.</span></div><div style="color: magenta; text-align: center;"><b><span style="font-size: x-small;">I am gonna be skinny god dammit. </span></b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br />
</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Also i have been getting a lot of questions.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br />
</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">So Next posting will be one of answering questions.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">If you have any about my life, loosing weight or Ana and Mia</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">please comment</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">or email me at </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">jlette_4lyfe@yahoo.com</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br />
</span></div><div style="color: magenta; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Love you girls<3</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="color: magenta;">Stay Skinny<3<3<3</span></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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</div>Gorgeous Nightmarehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08414798640391319198noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3991910280368777616.post-26427335222151138812011-12-17T15:02:00.000-08:002011-12-17T15:02:36.219-08:00Sunshine,<div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Today is warm and bright.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Feels nice not to be cold.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"> </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Ate a egg and toast - 150</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">A lean cuisine meal - 290</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Total : 440</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Woo hoo!</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Gonna get my exercise tonight, I plan to go out walk around and dance tonight (:</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">didn't oversleep today, got about 7 hours,</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">But I haven't had any water yet today.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">God its so hard!</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"> </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I haven't weighed myself even though I want to so badly.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">7 more days to go with the challenege and I'm scared I won't loose any weight.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I really hope I loose this 5 pounds</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br />
</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">A lot of my favorite blogs haven't been writing much lately :(</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Come on lady's I need you!!</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"> </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Kinda boring post I don't have much to say.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br />
</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Posting some pictures of food,</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Don't worry it won't make you want to eat junk food (:</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">(:</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="color: magenta;">Stay skinny Loves <3</span></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br />
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</div>Gorgeous Nightmarehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08414798640391319198noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3991910280368777616.post-87790118819551870522011-12-16T21:57:00.000-08:002011-12-16T21:57:22.431-08:00I have died everyday waiting for you,<div style="background-color: purple; color: white; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><b>Well Hello Lovelys</b>.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br />
</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Today has been pretty good,</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Only ate a plain piece of toast 70 calories.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">The reason ate so little is because yesterday I binged badly.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I am guessing around 1000 calories.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">:'(</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br />
</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">So tired of this. </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Santa, The only thing I want for Christmas is to be thin.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Please.Please.Please.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br />
</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I haven't weighed myself for two days, not going to until I'm finished with this 10 day challenge.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Working on drinking my water for the day,</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Even though its only 2 liters, I have a hard time doing that.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I don't like water at all.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Got my hour of exercise yesterday and today.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Two days down 8 more to go.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"> <span style="font-size: x-small;"><br />
</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Main purpose of this post is to address the hate I have been getting lately.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="color: #38761d;">Tis'</span> <span style="color: red;">the</span> <span style="color: #38761d;">season</span> <span style="color: red;">to</span> <span style="color: #38761d;">hate</span>.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I have been receiving messages as well as comments. </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Telling me how " I'm ruining my life, how I'm going to regret this"</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Ruining what life???</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Being overweight, is NOT a life.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">It's a fuckin waste of a life.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I do not want to spend the few years of being young that I have left being fat.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I want to be happy, and carefree.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">The only way I can do that is to be thin.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">If that means enduring a few months of not "Enjoying food" then so be it.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I'm sure most of these people behind this hate </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><b>Has never been called fat,</b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><b>Has never been ridiculed to the point of suicide,</b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><b>Has never hated herself so much she can't look in the mirror,</b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><b>Has never been the "fat" girlfriend or the "fat"one out of a group of girls.</b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><b> </b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">So before you come at me saying I promote ana, which I don't.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"> Before you tell me I'm ruining my life take a step back and put yourself in my shoes.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">No I don't ask for your pity or your prayers, I just ask you give me respect.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I didn't make this blog to be "pro ana"</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Or anything like that, I had no were else to go,</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">No one else to turn to.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I love giving encouragement to the girls who need it</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">and receiving words of kindness from people who know what I'm going through</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><3</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"> </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br />
</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I'm not alone in this fight anymore,</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I have 100's of people going through the same thing.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I belong here, no one will take this from me, <i><b>no one</b></i>.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br />
</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Sorry about my raging, just thought I would get that out there.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">And if you don't agree with what I'm doing please un-follow me</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">or even block me if you'd like.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I don't need anymore negativity in my life.</span></div><div style="color: magenta; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br />
</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="color: magenta;">Stay Skinny and Positive<3</span></span></div>.Gorgeous Nightmarehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08414798640391319198noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3991910280368777616.post-32772277172974443962011-12-15T02:00:00.000-08:002011-12-15T02:00:24.934-08:00A change.<div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"> I gained back the two pounds I lost.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I have no clue how.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I have been eating literally nothing.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br />
</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><b>So I'm gonna change things up a bit.</b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I'm going to start doing the 10 day challenge.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Here it is.</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjZho-Qf2epLAs2T6oD06Lvu3VGaWeBYrpIzzxEL7-ydjuFrr36vVzXx3ldW2e9jIZ8xWzQCn6z1dGLAAMqHESbSI_394TDUV3u0MH1E_vkA_MhkE-GTqjNtEfEk7kO7kl-rIrwtRDaLYs/s1600/c0e5411b.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjZho-Qf2epLAs2T6oD06Lvu3VGaWeBYrpIzzxEL7-ydjuFrr36vVzXx3ldW2e9jIZ8xWzQCn6z1dGLAAMqHESbSI_394TDUV3u0MH1E_vkA_MhkE-GTqjNtEfEk7kO7kl-rIrwtRDaLYs/s1600/c0e5411b.jpg" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">So what you want to aim for is</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">At least 2 Liters of water - 20 </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">1 hour of exercise -20</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">8 hours of sleep - 20</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">and maximum of 500 calories - 20</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">= 800 points</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="color: magenta; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">IT'S ONLY TEN DAYS, DO NOT MESS IT UP. </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br />
</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I think my problem is </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">1.I drink hardly any water.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">2. Little to no exercise</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">3.I only eat 300 calories a day</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">4. I sleep WAY to much, usually 11 hours </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br />
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Yesterday i had</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">bowl of cereal 120</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Toast 70</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Fudge 100</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">= 390 calories</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br />
</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Today i had</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Bowl of cereal : 120</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Lime ice cream bar: 80</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">pomegranate: 50</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">= 260 calories.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br />
</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Would anyone like to join me?</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br />
</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><b style="color: magenta;">Stay skinny, and loose 5 pounds with me (; <3</b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br />
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</div>Gorgeous Nightmarehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08414798640391319198noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3991910280368777616.post-60455553147225285222011-12-13T00:54:00.000-08:002011-12-13T00:54:33.300-08:00Work out for mee,<div style="text-align: center;">Currently obsessed with J. coles new song.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Actually i don't know if its his newest song, but itss pretty new.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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</div><div style="text-align: center;">There it is, Beware it has a catchy beat (;</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Did very good calorie wise.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Bowl of cearel with soy milk - 150 calories.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Sweet roll - 90 calorie.</div><div style="text-align: center;">250 Calories.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">I feel very sick at the moment, probably from so little food.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Gonna drink a bottle of water and then sleep.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Lost two pounds <3</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Two down, 13 more to go.</div><div style="text-align: center;">It will be super hard to loose the rest.</div><div style="text-align: center;">But I can do it, And for you other bloggers who are also doing this</div><div style="text-align: center;">YOU CAN DO IT TO.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Everytime I want to eat something,</div><div style="text-align: center;">I say NO,</div><div style="text-align: center;">Don't disappoint your bloggers (:</div><div style="text-align: center;">It has worked very well.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Many of you ask me about my cereal I eat.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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</div><div style="text-align: center;">There is my cereal and my milk (:</div><div style="text-align: center;">1 cup of Kashi cereal has only 120 calories, with 0 from fat.</div><div style="text-align: center;">And 1 cup of soy almond milk has 60 calories, I usually only use a half cup.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I guess its not even soy milk, don't know why i call it that ha</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Well I'm quite tired and have to wake up early.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Stay skinny Lovelys.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I will read ALL your blogs before going to bed as always.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><3<3<3</div>Gorgeous Nightmarehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08414798640391319198noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3991910280368777616.post-2021861808012462362011-12-12T01:23:00.000-08:002011-12-12T01:23:56.750-08:00Warm, But so Cold.<div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Is it possible to be warm on the inside, but yet freezing cold on the outside?</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"> </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I am freezing cold right now.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Lately, I am always cold. Unless a heater is blaring in my face.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Downside of not eating I guess.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Always said I would rather be cold, then hot.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Guess I got my wish.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">But I feel warm on the inside, Happiness brewing?</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I get to go home, (my real home 1,000 miles away) soon.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I am so happy, I could literally cry tears of joy.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I have never cried tears of joy before.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Might sound odd, But I adore the snow.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">The cold.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I would much rather buddle in cute layers then</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Strip of the layers to reveal whats underneath.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I <i><b>love</b></i> Stockings, boots, jackets and scarfs.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I <i><b>hate </b></i>bathing suits, short shorts and tiny tanktops.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Mostly because I look revolting in them.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br />
</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Luckly my hometown is cold 9 months out of 12</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Woo Hoo!</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"> </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I only ate an egg and piece of toast and a sweet roll today. 290 calories.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I really want to loose 15 more pounds.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">By January 2nd (when I go home)</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">My motivation is so strong.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I would weigh 115. </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Weird saying that number considering I came from 155.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">My Ultimate goal is 110 by end of January.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">45 pound weight loose in 3 months.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Nothing to brag about.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"> </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">On the not so bright side of news. </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">My dad cried when he found out I tried to kill myself.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">My sister didn't believe me, when she finally did she called me stupid and selfish.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">What every depressed person wants to hear.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"> My mom cried too, Bless her heart.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">My mom is my hero no matter what.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I love her more then anyone in this universe.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I will post a picture of me and her when i get home (:</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">She is beautiful.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"> </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><b>But the main reason I even posted tonight, </b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><b>Is to thank you guys.</b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><b>Every last one of my followers.</b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><b>Everyone who has took at least a second out of there busy days to think of me.</b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><b>Everyone who has given me motivation or praise.</b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><b>You guys <i>ARE</i> the reason I am still here.</b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><b>If your reading this you are my hero.</b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><b>I made this blog because I had no were else to go,</b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><b>No one else to confess my secrets to.</b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><b>You blogger's hold all my secrets and never judge me for any of them.</b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><b>I am forever thankful.</b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><b>If you think you have done nothing with your life you are wrong.</b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><u><b>You have saved mine.</b></u></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"> </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"> </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I leave you with some Motivational pictures. </span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><br />
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</div><div style="text-align: center;">Maybe I shall do this^^^</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Could be worth trying?</div>Gorgeous Nightmarehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08414798640391319198noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3991910280368777616.post-61660176718854671862011-12-10T22:36:00.000-08:002011-12-10T22:36:22.826-08:00Overdose.<div style="text-align: center;">Well, Last night was one of the worst nights of my life.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I just want to go live with my mom,</div><div style="text-align: center;">but it was looking near impossible at that time.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I have no friends, not even my twin sister loves me anymore.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Just this stupid, fat body that I am forced to live in.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">In 15 days, the anniversary of my best friend will be mourned. </div><div style="text-align: center;">I won't even get to visit her grave.</div><div style="text-align: center;">She was only 15 years old when her moms boyfriend shot her and her mom</div><div style="text-align: center;">On Christmas Day.</div><div style="text-align: center;">They say time heals everything.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><b>They fucking lied. </b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">I had 14 sleeping pills left.</div><div style="text-align: center;">14 little blue pills,</div><div style="text-align: center;">Whats the worst that could happen?</div><div style="text-align: center;">Die?</div><div style="text-align: center;">I would welcome death with arms wide open right now.</div><div style="text-align: center;">So,</div><div style="text-align: center;">I sent a text message to everyone that I loved,</div><div style="text-align: center;">Telling them how thankful I am to have them in my lifes</div><div style="text-align: center;">and that I loved them.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I took them four by four.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Taking 10X the recommend dosage.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">As I lay there, thinking back on my life, All the mistakes I had made.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I became scared to die,</div><div style="text-align: center;">What if I went to hell?</div><div style="text-align: center;">I couldn't imagine it was worse then earth.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I drifted off to sleep, thinking death would find me and whisk me away.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">About 3 hours later I woke up,</div><div style="text-align: center;">My heart was racing, </div><div style="text-align: center;">My body shaking uncontrollably. </div><div style="text-align: center;">My mouth was so dry I couldn't swallow</div><div style="text-align: center;">I tried to get up but my legs and arms were made of rubber.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I couldn't see anything.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I crawled into the bathroom were I proceeded to throw up.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Let me tell you a little secret.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Overdosing isn't a beautiful, easy death.</div><div style="text-align: center;">It's fucking<span style="font-size: x-small;"><i> <b>horrible</b>.</i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">All of that and I somehow didn't die/</div><div style="text-align: center;">Maybe two more would have killed me?</div><div style="text-align: center;">Maybe I should have washed it down with a 5th of vodka.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Today was horrible as well.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I felt like I was drunk all day long.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Horrible headaches, </div><div style="text-align: center;">Body aches, Mind spinning.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Felt Like I was gonna be sick all day long.</div><div style="text-align: center;"> </div><div style="text-align: center;">I also ate bad today.</div><div style="text-align: center;">A peice of toast with nutella - 150 calories.</div><div style="text-align: center;">A special K bar -90 calories.</div><div style="text-align: center;">A chicken sandwich from burger king - 630 calories.</div><div style="text-align: center;">870 calories.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">I can't even remember the last time I ate that much.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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</b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><b><span style="color: magenta;">Stay Skinny and <u>Happy</u> <3</span></b></div>Gorgeous Nightmarehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08414798640391319198noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3991910280368777616.post-84461370895143612662011-12-09T02:13:00.000-08:002011-12-09T02:13:45.800-08:00Faint.<div style="text-align: center;">So I just got back from the concert,</div><div style="text-align: center;">AMAZING.</div><div style="text-align: center;">There had to be at least 3,000 people there.</div><div style="text-align: center;">It was insane, </div><div style="text-align: center;">Until I fuckin fainted.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">So it went like this,</div><div style="text-align: center;">The second band, A Day to remember</div><div style="text-align: center;">just got done playing, And I was standing in the crowd waiting for the next band Rise Against to start playing.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I started to feel really sick to my stomach, but I didn't want to leave the crowd for fear of loosing my amazingly close position to the stage. Then I knew I was going to throw up so i made my way out of the crowd towards the bar to get some water, but all of sudden my vision went almost completely away and my head felt like it was full of sand, My legs gave out beneath me and i just crumbled to the floor. Some guy gave me a cup of water and asked if i needed him to call 911, Which of course i said no to. After 5 minutes I got up and went to the bathroom were I sat for about 10 minutes, Put a cold paper towel to my face and I was fine?</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Super weird I know.</div><div style="text-align: center;">All I had was a 90 calorie Special K bar and 200 calorie Spring rolls.</div><div style="text-align: center;">290 Calories and barely any water + Jumping around and extreme heat for a half hour.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I think thats what did it but I am not sure at all.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Anyone have any experience with this?!</div><div style="text-align: center;">I still feel sick and I'm shaking so I had a non diet Dr. Pepper</div><div style="text-align: center;">and a 6 inch ham and cheese subway sandwich.</div><div style="text-align: center;"> </div><div style="text-align: center;">Hmm, Overall a pretty great night.</div><div style="text-align: center;"> </div><div style="text-align: center;">Lost another pound, 4 pounds away from my 15 pound loose in 24 days </div><div style="text-align: center;">and my time is up. oh well I suppose.</div><div style="text-align: center;"> </div><div style="text-align: center;">Thanks for all you support,</div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: magenta;">Stay Skinny, And healthy<3</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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</div>Gorgeous Nightmarehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08414798640391319198noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3991910280368777616.post-78232946756477635542011-12-08T00:08:00.000-08:002011-12-08T00:08:15.563-08:00Bizaar, Bizzar.<div style="text-align: center;">As I sit here, Blogging.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Reading other people's inspiring blogs</div><div style="text-align: center;">In my warm bed, Counting down the hours until I get to see my favorite band of all time in concert.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Texting about 10 different guys, begging to see me.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Everything Seems perfect.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Until, I get up and see my refelection in my full length mirror.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I don't see what everyone else see's. </div><div style="text-align: center;">I don't see a Pretty, Thin, Young woman.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I see an ugly, fat, scared <b>child.</b></div><div style="text-align: center;">Sometimes, I just want to give up.</div><div style="text-align: center;">It's so hard to keep fighting, to be happy.</div><div style="text-align: center;">To count every single calorie that enters my mouth.</div><div style="text-align: center;">To cry every time I go over 400 calories a day.</div><div style="text-align: center;">To think, "How many miles do I have to run to work off this cookie"</div><div style="text-align: center;">When will this end, When will i be fuckin happy.</div><div style="text-align: center;">More importantly, <b>When I will be skinny.</b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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</div>Gorgeous Nightmarehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08414798640391319198noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3991910280368777616.post-81103861712934981072011-12-06T04:31:00.000-08:002011-12-06T04:31:52.809-08:00A Beautiful Wreck,<div style="text-align: center;">That's what I am,</div><div style="text-align: center;">A Beautiful Wreck.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Well as you guys know I am still on my loose 15 pounds in 24 days thing.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I have lost 11 pounds so far and i have three days left.</div><div style="text-align: center;">UGH. </div><div style="text-align: center;">I really thought I could do this,</div><div style="text-align: center;">I guess we will see what the next three days have in store.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">I have been eating very good,</div><div style="text-align: center;">Saturday, </div><div style="text-align: center;">All I had was a 90 calorie special K Bar</div><div style="text-align: center;">But then I got fuckin wasted.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I had probably 5 beers and three shots of Bacardi</div><div style="text-align: center;">I know I am a lightweight,</div><div style="text-align: center;">in my defense when you don't eat all day and haven't drank hard alcohol in well over a month,</div><div style="text-align: center;">Bad things happen.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I have no idea how many calories that haul included.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I planned on coming home and going for a run</div><div style="text-align: center;">But I got home around 6am and nearly peed my pants trying to get to the bathroom in time</div><div style="text-align: center;">Then i woke at 9am on my floor, fully clothed.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Jacket, pants, shoes and scarf intact.</div><div style="text-align: center;">haha, Needless to say i was in no condition to run.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Yesterday I ate a bowl of ceral</div><div style="text-align: center;">200 calories </div><div style="text-align: center;">and A Fucking hot pocket.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Ew.</div><div style="text-align: center;">340 calories.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Then I went for a mile run.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Today I ate</div><div style="text-align: center;">A bowl of ceral - 150 calories.</div><div style="text-align: center;">And a Diet Pepsi.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">God I hope I loose more weight.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">My home made bagels are cooking right now.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Damn me for being such a good cook!!</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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</div><div style="text-align: center;">I was reading some ones blog yesterday and they were talking about having an Ultimate Goal.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Hmm, So last night and today I was thinking, What is my "Ultimate Goal"? </div><div style="text-align: center;">I decided on one, its not very "cool" or anything like that.</div><div style="text-align: center;">But, We have this thing here in Las Vegas called, "The Extreme Thing"</div><div style="text-align: center;">I went to it last year and plan on going again this year.</div><div style="text-align: center;">It's like the Warp Tour, For those of you who know what that is.</div><div style="text-align: center;">For those of you who don't,</div><div style="text-align: center;">it's basically a huge outside event, were tons of "Extreme" Bands get togather and play.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Theres like 40 different stages, Vendors of all types, Lots of food and BMX and skateboarding competitions</div><div style="text-align: center;">It's VERY fun, hot shirtless tattooed guys with mohawks,</div><div style="text-align: center;">And lots and lots of pretty skinny gurls -__-</div><div style="text-align: center;">Well this year I hope to be one of those girls,</div><div style="text-align: center;">With a cut in half shirt and fuckin tight shorts, with NO muffin tops.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I also Want to crowd surf (:</div><div style="text-align: center;">i never have, for the fear i am to fat and no one will be able to lift me.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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</div>Gorgeous Nightmarehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08414798640391319198noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3991910280368777616.post-70134380717384914692011-11-30T20:52:00.000-08:002011-11-30T20:52:31.356-08:00I know I can do this.<div style="text-align: center;">Hello long lost Bloggers.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Why am I losing touch with this blog.</div><div style="text-align: center;">:(</div><div style="text-align: center;">It makes me so sad.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I have been so fucking busy it's so hard to keep up on it.</div><div style="text-align: center;">but I have to, I love it to much to let it go.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Just got back from my run,</div><div style="text-align: center;">Felt great.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Yesterday was my birthday.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Ugh.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I ate horribly.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I felt like I deserved it, like since I wasn't gettin any presents I deserved to eat?</div><div style="text-align: center;">Stupid i know.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Well for breakfeat I had - 1 large pancake with surup and butter</div><div style="text-align: center;">2 peices of turkey bacon </div><div style="text-align: center;">And a Egg.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Then I had A large peice of papa johns Hawain pizza</div><div style="text-align: center;">And A HUGE piece of chocolate cake with chocolate frosting. </div><div style="text-align: center;">Total: I am guessing a 1000 calories.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I went for a 6 mile walk after that</div><div style="text-align: center;">So 600 calories burned.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Still stretched my stupid stomach out.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Depise my horrible binge I haven't gained any weight.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I fasted all day today and went for a mile run.</div><div style="text-align: center;">5 More pounds in 8 days.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Think I can do it?</div><div style="text-align: center;"><u><b>I know I can.</b></u></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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</div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: magenta;"><b>Stay Skinny,</b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: magenta;"><b>Love you ladiess<3 </b></span></div>Gorgeous Nightmarehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08414798640391319198noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3991910280368777616.post-82039863161227456452011-11-24T11:07:00.000-08:002011-11-24T11:07:40.125-08:00So.Sorry.<div style="text-align: center;">I haven't blogged for 6 days.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Wow.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">I'm on day 10 of the loose 15 pounds in 24 days.</div><div style="text-align: center;">S0 14 days left and 10 pounds to go.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Not looking promising.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Today is thanksgiving.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I feel like I'm the only one who celebrates this awful holiday?</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">I haven't aten at all today.</div><div style="text-align: center;">And yesterday I only had</div><div style="text-align: center;">a bowl of ceral : 150</div><div style="text-align: center;">A peice of chicken: 100</div><div style="text-align: center;">And a Dr. Pepper 10 : 10</div><div style="text-align: center;">So <b>260 calories</b></div><div style="text-align: center;">but thats no reason to eat the way I am going to tonight.</div><div style="text-align: center;">On the menu for thanksgiving is:</div><div style="text-align: center;">Turkey + The stuffing</div><div style="text-align: center;">Mashed Potato's + the gravy</div><div style="text-align: center;">Deviled Eggs.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Sweet potato Casserole.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Pumpkin Bread</div><div style="text-align: center;">Chedder, bacon pinwheels.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Taco 7 layer Dip</div><div style="text-align: center;">Cherry pie</div><div style="text-align: center;">Pumpkin Pie</div><div style="text-align: center;">Pecan Pie</div><div style="text-align: center;">And Bannana Cream Pie.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Total : like 12 Billion Calories.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Thinking about maybe Purging afterwards.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I have only Purged twice.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Horrible experiences, I HATE purging.</div><div style="text-align: center;">UGHHHH</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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</div><div style="text-align: center;">On Lighter news its my birthday in three days.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Getting Holiday Havoc Tickets and Eybrow piercing.</div><div style="text-align: center;">A new longboard and An Ipod touch.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Yes I know all my gifts before hand (:</div><div style="text-align: center;">If your wondering what holiday Havoc is,,,</div><div style="text-align: center;">It's the Band Rise against, A day to remember and Middle Class Rut.</div><div style="text-align: center;">WOO HOO.</div><div style="text-align: center;">MY three favorite bands in one place, I'm so fucking exciteD</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">After today I am gonna try a three day Liquid fast,</div><div style="text-align: center;">If you ever read my blogg you know i SUCK at fasting.</div><div style="text-align: center;">SO I guess We will see how this goes.</div><div style="text-align: center;"> </div><div style="text-align: center;">I have been Volunteering at the animal Shelter a lot lately.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I love it, Hoping to pick up a actual paying job there.</div><div style="text-align: center;">So Walking the dogs around For 3 - 4 hours defiantly burns some calories. </div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">You guys have been bugging me crazy to see pictures of myself so</div><div style="text-align: center;">Here ya go,.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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</div>Gorgeous Nightmarehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08414798640391319198noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3991910280368777616.post-8345593599987333472011-11-18T00:36:00.000-08:002011-11-18T00:36:36.669-08:00Skin and Bones (:<div style="text-align: center;">Ahh, I haven't felt this good in a longgg time,</div><div style="text-align: center;">Days, weeks or maybe even months?</div><div style="text-align: center;">I feel lighter, Skinnier, prettier.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Not saying this is going to last a long time, it never does.</div><div style="text-align: center;">But what the hell! </div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">My "loose 15 pounds in 24 days" is I feel going well.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I have literally not been eating at all.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Day 1 - 150 calorie skinny cow ice cream & 35 calorie fruit bar!!</div><div style="text-align: center;">Day 2 - 300 calorie dinner.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Day 3 - 90 Calorie Special K bar, 20 calorie red bull and 150 calorie bowl of cereal.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Total for 3 days so far? </div><div style="text-align: center;"><b>745 Calories</b>, Damnnn</div><div style="text-align: center;">Thats pretty good for 3 days.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Most people consume that in a day!</div><div style="text-align: center;">My biggest motivation?</div><div style="text-align: center;">These size 3 jeans that I want so badly to fit into</div><div style="text-align: center;">They almost fit. Whoo Hoo!</div><div style="text-align: center;">I haven't weighed myself since i started this "loose 15 pounds thing"</div><div style="text-align: center;">Not going to till day 10!</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Oh i wanted to tell you guys if you already don't know,</div><div style="text-align: center;">About <b>Skinny Cow Ice Cream</b>!!!</div><div style="text-align: center;">Fucking A, This stuff tastes like it has a 1000 calories in it.</div><div style="text-align: center;">But A mint chocolate chip ice cream drum stick has only 150 calories in it!!</div><div style="text-align: center;">I know that sounds like a lot, but if you know anything about ice cream it isn't..</div><div style="text-align: center;">If you can find it, BUY IT (:</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjS2XY_Gv1xmvvrawJq7sXpyy8M-1wlc8Dgxc7cFQ65tpq5ti4gwI6kXcVrvvmNHtsedIKJn97A2Fs8zvPgrKStVflWCBFLHOAB77pkLSrLwvIalp5TtE1-W0nivm83onGrCEj1fINS7RQ/s1600/4ebb6dcb8dcd10a7ad5ecd329d987562.jpeg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="194" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjS2XY_Gv1xmvvrawJq7sXpyy8M-1wlc8Dgxc7cFQ65tpq5ti4gwI6kXcVrvvmNHtsedIKJn97A2Fs8zvPgrKStVflWCBFLHOAB77pkLSrLwvIalp5TtE1-W0nivm83onGrCEj1fINS7RQ/s320/4ebb6dcb8dcd10a7ad5ecd329d987562.jpeg" width="320" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"> </div><div style="text-align: center;">Anyways, Beyond that Amazing looking picture up there^</div><div style="text-align: center;">(;</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">I met a new friend, Well maybe more then a friend? (:</div><div style="text-align: center;">We will call him C, "Black C" as i call him for obvious reasons,(:</div><div style="text-align: center;">He is beautiful, I have some strange obsession with black males.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I met him while on one of my walks, he stopped and begged me to talk to him.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Felt a little strange getting into a strangers car, on the side of the road.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I know what your thinking, "how dangerous!!!"</div><div style="text-align: center;">But considering it was a 2011 dodge charger, I felt safe. HA</div><div style="text-align: center;">As he talked to me, (showering me with complements)</div><div style="text-align: center;">He said "ohh I love a girl with THICK thighs.</div><div style="text-align: center;">-__-</div><div style="text-align: center;">Are you fucking serious?</div><div style="text-align: center;">You had to use the word THICK.</div><div style="text-align: center;">UGHHHH</div><div style="text-align: center;">I guess 50 of my 130 pounds must be in my THICK thighs.</div><div style="text-align: center;">You guys know my obsession with little tiny legs.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Here I am oblivious to my thick O' Thighs.</div><div style="text-align: center;">When I get down to 100 pounds i guarantee they won't be thick anymore (:</div><div style="text-align: center;">ohh wow, just realized how obsessive that must sound. </div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
Hmmm, Beyond C telling me that, he is Superrrr nice, and sexyyyy</div><div style="text-align: center;">Oh did i mention he's a drug dealer. </div><div style="text-align: center;">hahahaha, oh wow.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Yepp, A drug dealer.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Mostly Weed, but also Crack.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Ah, Crack so bad typed out.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Why is that?</div><div style="text-align: center;">Probably cause it is bad, right??</div><div style="text-align: center;">Hmm. Crack Cocaine. </div><div style="text-align: center;">I haven't very experience with this drug, considering I'm 17.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I know, It's bad bad bad. </div><div style="text-align: center;"><u><b>But has any of you skinny bloggers had any contact with this drug?</b></u></div><div style="text-align: center;">I have never done it, i have seen it, but never got offered to smoke any.<u><b><br />
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</div>Gorgeous Nightmarehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08414798640391319198noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3991910280368777616.post-60486095802035615802011-11-15T03:17:00.000-08:002011-11-15T03:17:55.452-08:00Ready To Fall<div style="text-align: center;">Oh my lovely bloggers, I have not blogged for like 4 days!</div><div style="text-align: center;">That is horrible, When I blog it keeps me focused, keeps me inspired.</div><div style="text-align: center;">So you can guess I haven't been doing very good.</div><div style="text-align: center;">The last two days I have been binging.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Well I don't know if you could call it that considering I rarely go above 600 calories a day, even when I binge</div><div style="text-align: center;">but I'm sure I have gone over that, UGH. I seriously hate eating.</div><div style="text-align: center;">It makes me feel so worthless, So out of control.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I feel like my weight is the only thing I can control.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">I am so fucking determined to loose 15 more pounds in 25 days!</div><div style="text-align: center;"> So that gives me till December 10th.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I really need help with this.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I feel like I'm trying to do something thats impossible.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I gained two pounds in two days from binging.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I wish I hadn't fucked up my metabolism so badly.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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</div>Gorgeous Nightmarehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08414798640391319198noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3991910280368777616.post-88859768314852067482011-11-09T15:03:00.000-08:002011-11-09T15:03:30.103-08:00Barista?<div style="text-align: center;">Soo I have a job interview tomorrow for a coffee shop to be a barista.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I am very neverious considering I have little experience with making coffee.</div><div style="text-align: center;">And the thought of working around 400 calorie drinks all day makes me feel sick.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Iced coffee, with tons of milk and whip cream is my weakness.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Hopefully they don't let me have any free drinks, I will be screwed.</div><div style="text-align: center;">But the plus side of this is I will be on my feet all day</div><div style="text-align: center;">Better then sitting at home blogging all day.</div><div style="text-align: center;"> </div><div style="text-align: center;">Yesterday I quit Liquid fasting, </div><div style="text-align: center;">I lost 3 pounds from liquid fasting for 4 days</div><div style="text-align: center;">Yesterday I ate:</div><div style="text-align: center;">A cup of stir Fry with a few tablespoons of soy sauce 40 Calories</div><div style="text-align: center;">Half of an avacodo 120 calories.</div><div style="text-align: center;">A bowl of cereal with soy almond milk 155 calories.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Total: <b>315</b></div><div style="text-align: center;">Then I walked about 6 miles<b> 600 calories burned.</b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Today I have eaten half a cup of soup : 90 calories</div><div style="text-align: center;">and a cookie 100 calories??</div><div style="text-align: center;">Thats all I will eat for the rest of the day since I'm not going to walk tonight. </div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Thanks for all your comments and all my followers <3<3</div><div style="text-align: center;">Stay Skinny!</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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</div>Gorgeous Nightmarehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08414798640391319198noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3991910280368777616.post-14248702880621779202011-11-07T20:08:00.000-08:002011-11-07T20:08:28.465-08:00Suffocate in the mess you're making<div style="text-align: center;">More and More.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I want to loose more weight, it's So addicting.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Today All I ate was a 70 calorie soup.</div><div style="text-align: center;">So happy with the progress I'm making.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I tried to treat myself with some Tamato Basil Soup,</div><div style="text-align: center;">My favorite soup, but I couldn't eat it.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I just wasn't hungry.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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</div><div style="text-align: center;">I cried <b>a lot</b> today.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Cause I miss my mom, my little brothers and my friends.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I moved here about a year ago,</div><div style="text-align: center;">before that I lived in my hometown for my entire life.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I had soo many friends there, friends I grew up with.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><u><i><b>Forced</b></i></u> to move here, I hate it,</div><div style="text-align: center;">It's hot, to many people and I feel alone all the time.</div><div style="text-align: center;">When I lived in my hometown, I rarely felt fat and I felt beautiful.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><b>Here</b>, I feel fat and an outcast.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I feel like I have to be as pretty as the girls here.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Very hard to live up to, I tell ya. </div><div style="text-align: center;">Whatever I guess, Everything happens for a reason?</div><div style="text-align: center;"><b>Yeah Right. </b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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</div>Gorgeous Nightmarehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08414798640391319198noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3991910280368777616.post-32263499716306424182011-11-07T02:36:00.000-08:002011-11-07T02:36:31.795-08:00So weak, but so strong.<div style="text-align: center;">Is it possible to be weak and strong at the same time?</div><div style="text-align: center;">I feel weak, like all I want to do is sleep</div><div style="text-align: center;">but I feel so strong because I can live on so little food.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">It's been a day or two since I have blogged.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Can't really say I have been busy, just occupied with different things I guess.</div><div style="text-align: center;"> Today my liquid fast went very well.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Only had a 90 calorie soup for breakfeast and a 120 calorie soup for dinner.</div><div style="text-align: center;">The rest was water and a diet Dr. pepper. </div><div style="text-align: center;">And I went to the swap meet and walked ALOT.</div><div style="text-align: center;"> </div><div style="text-align: center;"><b>Yesterday was a different story.</b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">I did well throughout the whole day, </div><div style="text-align: center;">Only a soup for breakfest until about 6.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I went to taco bell and had a crunchy taco.. 120 calories.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
Then I snuck out and went to fremont street.</div><div style="text-align: center;">It was a blast, Guys were hitting on me left and right.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Had about 8 different guys ask for me number.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Then like 10 different guys beg me to come hang out with them.</div><div style="text-align: center;">hahaha, if they only knew I was only 16 almost 17.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I lie and say I'm 19, or 21 depending on the guy.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Something about wandering fremont late at night, </div><div style="text-align: center;">Bright lights, Music blaring.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Constantly having a beer and cigarette in my hands.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Guys staring me down.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><b>F.r.e.e.d.o.m</b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Luckily I arrived home without my dad noticing,</div><div style="text-align: center;">Then went straight to the fridge.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Walking 6 miles really made me hungry.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I had salsa with chips...175 calories</div><div style="text-align: center;">Rice pudding...70 Calories</div><div style="text-align: center;">Glass of chocalate soy milk...120 calories</div><div style="text-align: center;">And beer...200 calories.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Don't forget my crunchy taco from earlier. </div><div style="text-align: center;">Total from yesterday..<b><i> 685 </i></b></div><div style="text-align: center;">I haven't had that many calories in one day in like a month.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Yuck. </div><div style="text-align: center;">Walking burns about a 100 calories a mile.</div><div style="text-align: center;">So I burned 600 calories.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Still should never eat like that again!</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">I just got done making blackberry Cobbler </div><div style="text-align: center;">and Chocolate, Chocolate Chip Cookies.</div><div style="text-align: center;">But I didn't eat any,</div><div style="text-align: center;">Except for a bite of my cobbler.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I had to at least taste it! </div><div style="text-align: center;">But I don't like cookies, So I avoided those well.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><b>Going to continue liquid fasting for a few more days. </b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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</div><div style="text-align: center;">Love you my skinny followers<3<3</div><div style="text-align: center;">Stay Strong</div><div style="text-align: center;">Thank you tons for all your wonderful supportive comments</div><div style="text-align: center;">They keep me going!<br />
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</div>Gorgeous Nightmarehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08414798640391319198noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3991910280368777616.post-11998387795029117622011-11-05T02:13:00.000-07:002011-11-05T02:13:04.727-07:00Cause Sometime You just feel tired..<blockquote class="tr_bq"><div style="text-align: center;"><b>'Cause sometimes you just feel tired,<br />
Feel weak, and when you feel weak, you feel like you wanna just give up.<br />
But you gotta search within you, you gotta find that inner strength<br />
And just pull that shit out of you and get that motivation to not give up<br />
And not be a quitter, no matter how bad you wanna just fall flat on your face and collapse.</b></div></blockquote><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Whenever I feel like I'm gonna give up, I listen to that song.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Gives me motivation EVERY time. </div><div style="text-align: center;">I fuckin love you Eminem.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Today was horrible, but my fasting went very good.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I only had Soup - 70 calories</div><div style="text-align: center;">Diet Dr. Pepper - 0 Calories</div><div style="text-align: center;">Sugar Free Redbull - 35 calories</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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Then I walked <u><i><b>3</b></i></u> miles. </div><div style="text-align: center;"> God it feels amazing.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><b>Day 1 of liquid fast completed</b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><u>At least 4 more days to go</u>.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Skinny, Skinny, Skinny.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Stay strong Loves<3</div><div style="text-align: center;"></div>Gorgeous Nightmarehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08414798640391319198noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3991910280368777616.post-91458198183920197012011-11-04T01:32:00.000-07:002011-11-04T01:32:46.181-07:00I felt the cold rain of the coming storm.<div style="text-align: center;">I'm so freakin cold, All the time to.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Oh well, I guess.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Well Added on to my 190 ice coffee is a 70 calorie rice pudding snack</div><div style="text-align: center;">and like 20 raspberries - 64 calories. </div><div style="text-align: center;"><b>Total: 324</b> defiantly not good, but not horribly bad.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Tomorrow I start my liquid fast.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Only Liquids allowed:</div><div style="text-align: center;"><b>SoyMilk</b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><b>Water</b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><b>No sugar redbulls</b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><b>Diet soda</b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><b>Soup</b>,(under a 100 calories)</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">I'm actually kind of excited to see how much weight I loose (:</div><div style="text-align: center;"><strike>I don't know how many days I will do this for,</strike></div><div style="text-align: center;"><u><b> As many as I can.</b></u></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">So I went grocery shopping with my dad today, torture I tell you!</div><div style="text-align: center;">I did manage to get a few foods I can actually eat though</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Cambells Soup at hand, These things are amazing at 70 calories a piece!</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Soy milk, Almond and chocalate! 50% more calcium then milk and the pure almond soy milk only has 60 calories a cup!</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Cozy shack rice puddings, 70 calories a piece is quite a lot, but I LOVE rice pudding!</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Raspberries, Black berries,Strawberries, TONS of veggies!</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Stocked up of the single serving green gaint veggies, got more flavors too! </div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">And more cherry Diet Dr. Pepper a course (;</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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</div><div style="text-align: center;"><b>So I pretty much good for a month or two!!</b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">My stomach hurts badly, :(</div><div style="text-align: center;">Gonna get tons of blankets from my closet, cuddle up with my dog and watch a movie.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Favorite movies?</div><div style="text-align: center;">American History X</div><div style="text-align: center;">Alpha Dog</div><div style="text-align: center;">Tha Carter(documentary on Lil Wayne )</div><div style="text-align: center;">Into The Wild</div><div style="text-align: center;">Twilight Saga</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Those are just the ones off the top of my dome.</div><div style="text-align: center;">If you haven't watched any of those I HIGHLY recommend you do! (:</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Dream Skinny</div><div style="text-align: center;"><3<3</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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</div>Gorgeous Nightmarehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08414798640391319198noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3991910280368777616.post-58708107655105509532011-11-03T12:14:00.000-07:002011-11-03T12:14:50.062-07:00All in my head.<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi4wG-MUM488J31vhooBANHJjYkl0Y0xq9OSpHnrsc5ChpeCkaaMhZRFheazziAPxjpwgYX7zJ9pyjR_hJNG6gvBR5cMqSH-u5etg2ZW_hf6d3r5v6qu6X09EhravyUKm-ehGtxGCKuN-Y/s1600/tumblr_lnwt6d9Wmd1qmvunco1_500_large.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi4wG-MUM488J31vhooBANHJjYkl0Y0xq9OSpHnrsc5ChpeCkaaMhZRFheazziAPxjpwgYX7zJ9pyjR_hJNG6gvBR5cMqSH-u5etg2ZW_hf6d3r5v6qu6X09EhravyUKm-ehGtxGCKuN-Y/s320/tumblr_lnwt6d9Wmd1qmvunco1_500_large.jpg" width="308" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;">I feel so light headed and dizzy, it feels amazing.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I had an iced coffee this morning,</div><div style="text-align: center;">190 calories.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Not eating anything for the rest of the day/</div><div style="text-align: center;">Gonna bury myself in housework and job applications so I won't think of food.</div><div style="text-align: center;">But to be honest, I don't even wanna eat anything.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I got dumped this morning, i know its cause I'm fat.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I don't even care honestly, I'm better off alone.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">kind of a depressing post.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">I will post a more upbeat one later, I promise.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Stay Skinny my loves, </div><h6 class="uiStreamMessage" data-ft="{"type":1}" style="color: magenta; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span class="messageBody translationEligibleUserMessage" data-ft="{"type":3}">♥♥</span></span></h6><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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