Friday, February 17, 2012

Mental Breakdown,

Breakdown, After Breakdown.
 Can't remember the last time I have had such a bad day.
Not eating really makes me a mental nut case.
I cried myself to sleep and slept for like 5 hours.
Woke up, Went to Chucky Cheese,
Had TWO pieces of pizza :"(
 Came home, Had another breakdown.
Tore my room apart out of frustration.
Ate A 200 calorie Burrito.

Now I sit here in my room which is in Shambles.
Fucking pissed I ate today.
Yesterday I did good with fasting.
Today not good at all.

I swear to god I'm not eating tomorrow.
I can do this.
All you ladies are doing and looking Amazing.
SO Jealous. 

Youguysaremyinspiration<3

My Thinspo for Today is Crop Tops.
Weird, Iknow But I have a strange obsession with them.
Wish so Badly I could look like these girls in them!








6 comments:

  1. Im sorry you had such a rough day. I hope the next day is better for you. Hang in there <3

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  2. You sound like you have had a day from hell :( Hang in there sweetie, it will all be worth it in the end, i promise you that! xx

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  3. I know exactly how you feel; I just came out of a full WEEK of hard-core binging after a month of eating normally... My pathetic recovery attempt for my boyfriends sake. I don't know if he knows I've relapsed or not....
    Anyway, good luck with your fast! I'm cutting back my intake slowly, and hope to god I get somewhere!
    I started at 67kg. Got down to 58kg. Then attempted recovery.... Stuck back at 63kg agian! (and I'm 5''7). Look forward to hearing how u did xx

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  4. I love crop tops! When I'm thin I'm sure that's all I'm going to wear in the summer.
    Don't worry about eating. It's just your bodies instinct after not eating for so long. It sucks but it will always happen. I'm sure the pizza and burito wont affect you too much.

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  5. hey lovely, listen my old blog got messed up so my new one is THEPICTURESQUEPRINCESS.BLOGSPOT.COM pls come join :) I love your backround by the way, did ya make it?

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  6. ps. pls come join other lovelies as well, I need some Ana friends, sometimes I feel so alone in this, it's hard.

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